Impatient - Part 1

I've never been a patient person. Especially when I've really wanted something. Though with getting older, things become much more accessible, or in some cases less desirable. For example, as a kid, ice cream is awesome. It's cold, it's cream, it's sugary, what more could you want? But it was always something that was distributed by people in authority (parents, teachers, etc...). Now, I can just buy a tub of ice cream whenever I want. And even so, I've had it so many times now, it's lost it's cache. A tub of ice cream can last in my freezer for well over a month.

It's good in some ways because I'm not constantly wanting something. But at the same time it's sad, because does that mean there are less things that make me that excited? or that it's more difficult to get excited over things?

The last time I was really excited, was when I was going out with that girl who ended up being, well crazy to put it mildly. That was well over half a year ago. Before that it was when I moved into my new place, well over a year ago now. And even then I wasn't super excited. I needed somewhere to live. It was out of necessity more than enjoyment, not that I haven't.

I'm super excited about going on vacation in at the end of the week though. In fact, the last two weeks, I've been pretty cranky, because I just want the vacation to arrive. Probably also because I've also been stressed about it and have been a tough time sleeping. But that should come in handy for the 10+ hours in transit.

After having a discussion in regards to the topic above, as well as new developments, a few new points have come to light.

The first being, that there will be the unfortunate fall back to earth and to the mundane. How long do these moments of excitement last? Days if you're lucky, weeks if you're really lucky.

Secondly, there are little points of excitement there and there. But they're very fleeting. Having a good day on the court, making a successful dish, scoring a date, and so on. But the longest any of these last, is minutes, hours at the very best.

Thirdly, being older means less things that are new. It's really only new experiences that get people excited. And maybe that's the problem, that I need to push my boundaries more. But even having said that, the moments are still short and unsustainable.

Thirdly, really, only 2 things per year to get excited about? 2?!?!?!?! That is honestly to me, MINDBLOWING. I mean, 10+ months of the year, I'm practically sleepwalking through life. Here's my daily life in a nutshell, wake up, eat, go to work, eat, work, walk for coffee, work, come home, eat, insert activity here (some combination of badminton, squash, working out, tv, internet), go to bed. Exciting stuff eh? OMG, 2, I seriously can't get over that.

Moments of Clarity

Have you read Malcolm Gladwell's The Tipping Point? In a nutshell, it's about how small factors alter the outcome of situations. While maybe not the best metaphor, I find my life has had certain moments of clarity where decisions were made based on specific things happening that just flipped a switch all of a sudden.

I think I just had one.

dum dum dum...!

Not to get all philosophical and all, but...

You ever wonder if any of this is real? Not that I think we're all living in some dream world, when in reality we're enslaved by robots.

I'm not dodging bullets anytime soon

The world is so big, yet life is such an individual experience.

Latest Words of Wisdom (via Darren)

Its about knowing what you want vs what other people want

My Own Breakfast Creation

2 Cups Multigrain Cheerios
1 Fairly Rip Banana sliced
Chocolate Milk
Crushed Walnuts (optional)

I've been making this for awhile now, but thought I should share. It's soooooooo good.

Question. (said like Dwight Schrute)

I find as time goes on, I'm becoming, I don't know if indifferent is the right world, but my expectations are lower. Anyway, here's the question.

Better to be "All or Nothing!" or "Well, this is alright."?

You Know You're Getting Old When...

1) You don't recover physically as quickly.
This is both big and small, from major injuries to minor scrapes. Even papercuts take longer to heal!

2) You worry about things that you never worried about before.
Things like the weather, politics, price of gas, price of milk, etc...

3) Going to bed past midnight counts as a late night.
Even if it's on the weekend.

4) Waking up late is waking up past 9 in the morning.
Even if it's on the weekend.

5) Music you listen to is played on Adult Contemporary radio.
I shake my fist at you CHUM 104.5

6) You can't wear certain things anymore.
Not without feeling juvenile anyway.

7) People around you are getting old.
This happens all the time, but now you notice it. Your parents are less capable, your friends are more grown up, and "little kids" aren't so little anymore.

8) Developing a sense of nostalgia.
Awwwwww, remember when...?

9) You don't get the new/newest trends.
Justin Bieber, Auto-tune, The Hills, Twitter, Vampires, among others.