I've never been a patient person. Especially when I've really wanted something. Though with getting older, things become much more accessible, or in some cases less desirable. For example, as a kid, ice cream is awesome. It's cold, it's cream, it's sugary, what more could you want? But it was always something that was distributed by people in authority (parents, teachers, etc...). Now, I can just buy a tub of ice cream whenever I want. And even so, I've had it so many times now, it's lost it's cache. A tub of ice cream can last in my freezer for well over a month.
It's good in some ways because I'm not constantly wanting something. But at the same time it's sad, because does that mean there are less things that make me that excited? or that it's more difficult to get excited over things?
The last time I was really excited, was when I was going out with that girl who ended up being, well crazy to put it mildly. That was well over half a year ago. Before that it was when I moved into my new place, well over a year ago now. And even then I wasn't super excited. I needed somewhere to live. It was out of necessity more than enjoyment, not that I haven't.
I'm super excited about going on vacation in at the end of the week though. In fact, the last two weeks, I've been pretty cranky, because I just want the vacation to arrive. Probably also because I've also been stressed about it and have been a tough time sleeping. But that should come in handy for the 10+ hours in transit.
After having a discussion in regards to the topic above, as well as new developments, a few new points have come to light.
The first being, that there will be the unfortunate fall back to earth and to the mundane. How long do these moments of excitement last? Days if you're lucky, weeks if you're really lucky.
Secondly, there are little points of excitement there and there. But they're very fleeting. Having a good day on the court, making a successful dish, scoring a date, and so on. But the longest any of these last, is minutes, hours at the very best.
Thirdly, being older means less things that are new. It's really only new experiences that get people excited. And maybe that's the problem, that I need to push my boundaries more. But even having said that, the moments are still short and unsustainable.
Thirdly, really, only 2 things per year to get excited about? 2?!?!?!?! That is honestly to me, MINDBLOWING. I mean, 10+ months of the year, I'm practically sleepwalking through life. Here's my daily life in a nutshell, wake up, eat, go to work, eat, work, walk for coffee, work, come home, eat, insert activity here (some combination of badminton, squash, working out, tv, internet), go to bed. Exciting stuff eh? OMG, 2, I seriously can't get over that.
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